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we apparently dont matter................. but we're still hot as hell?? [14 Nov 2005|08:42pm]
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[02 Oct 2005|06:46pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

we had a blast... i cant remember feeling that great and horrible paranoid all at the same time. thank you my little queen b for beign born on October first. i will forever hold you dear in my heart.. moreso than pretty much any other female in this world.... hey do you want to be my maid of honor? lol... ok im getting ahead of myself. haha wow.. imagine?? ahh*!

anyways i want to pay a tribute to people that dont know how to just say sorry.... ok here it goes:

ooh boo hoo im soo sad and you know what
im a little pedophile that after three years i cant get over the fact that i almost
completley obliterated someooen off the planet.
i think im narcissistic when im fact i couldnt be further from that
since im rather overweight and under height
you know half the world hates me yet they smile and pretend to like my voice...
i think im artistic when i just imitate what i like
and its not even all that great when the spotlights on me
even thgough ive been beggign for it for the past twenty odd years of my life
i cant stand religion.. because i know im a fucked up person
and i know that im not on Gods good list
(in case you havent noticed, i cant stand being disliked)
im basically insecure... and i try to feel good abotu myself
but when i can stand the guilt no more i write little nothings
to beople i hurt... maybe that'll give them back a summer? or something

* dont you feel bad for them?... just a thought... haha the devil has returned and the siren sings the saddest song tonight _end quote..

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[17 Sep 2005|04:28pm]
this week... worst week ever. i hate having to be on my guard, oh and i think im re-developing that stomach condition on account of a stupid slut and someoen that doesnt know when to quit... i am in love with a fictional character that doesnt liek to give way to opportunity but loves to jump in the sack... and the sack is an acutal burlap one that i am one day going to throw in the Hudson not the everyday bed cene with two bodies intwining in a mass of sheets stained with laaaaame ass promises and lies and all that other good stuff... yeah i wonder if he knows? what a great present to recieve on the day of your birth... i've had a bad experience today ... i think i'll screw up a whole fourhundred and something days of hard work and sweat and tears and comprise(?) because i dont know how to stay the fuck away from things that arent mine..... stupid bitches. i am sooo sick of looking at your face... "its hard to remember what it was that attracted you to them when things like this happen huh?"...i happen to be seeing alot of smoke lately which is exactly whani feel liek doing at the moment because i need somthing to make me feel better... i think im going ot be a loser and lieten to Thursday today because the thoguht of amazingly hot guys making not so good music makes the music amazingly hot too... just because the bodies that play it are gifted with incredible looks... i need something to pick me up... anyone have anything they can spare? i want to be a poet.

people are ugly to us cause what they do huh?.. cause when things go bad its the other persons fault so we say theyre ugly which fixes the situation, makes us feel 97% better which is alot more than i can say for the rest of this world... if it's lucky one day ill let it lick the bottom of my shoe. i liked it when he was living under that stupid rock better.. didnt you? i love this journal.. it never says anything it just takes it all in and shuts the fuck up.

(15 | kiss and tell)

[01 Sep 2005|07:35pm]
i fell in love with words again...

"we're drowning in love because we refuse to breathe" i think i have a favorite professor.

(3 | kiss and tell)

[15 Aug 2005|04:22pm]

Before you slip into unconsciousness
I'd like to have another kiss
Another flashing ch
ance at bliss
Another kiss, another kiss

The days are bright and filled with pain
Enclose me in your gentle rain
The time you ran was to
o insane
We'll meet again, we'll meet again

Oh tell me where your freedom lies
The streets are fields tha
t never die
Deliver me from reasons why
You'd rather cry, I'd rather fly

The crystal ship is being filled
A thousand girls, a thousand thrills
A million ways to sp
end your time
When we get back, I'll drop a line

 

how sad huh?... im sooo down? lol but in a good way? i feel the need to express some concern for the melencholy that gets me.. a gripping feeling in the middle of my chest when i listen to certain songs lately... well it was an intoxicating weekend : ) i still cant decide on my favorite part... the bathroom at Gus's house... the car with Maya...  or the "Smoke House Cupcakes" GD those were fucked up cupcakes hahaha... dont let nooen get yooouu doooooown!!! haha Heather.. imagine spendint the weekend alone? ... I had a great time.

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[14 Aug 2005|12:34am]
oh man... party at Blue CHips... jordan got upset but i love him so he should cool down and love me back xoxo

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oh no, its ANDREA day [08 Jul 2005|12:00am]

...I REMEMBER WAY BACK WHEN...

 

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SWEETIE! i wish you the best birthday and love you mucho....happy birthday!

 

<3

heath

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[14 Jun 2005|09:15am]
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better late than never

(2 | kiss and tell)

[31 May 2005|10:58am]
Carry me Caravan take me away
Take me to Portugal, take me to Spain
Andalusia with fields full of grain
I have to see you again and again
Take me, Spanish Caravan
Yes, I know you can

Trade winds find Galleons lost in the sea
I know where treasure is waiting for me
Silver and gold in the mountains of Spain
I have to see you again and again
Take me, Spanish Caravan
Yes, I know you can


i remember you had it in your head for a while... probably cause of the pictures all over the card? sorry it was all my fault i take full responasbility for the tormenting of the song stuck in your head. we should really play with those dice again sometime... and make deformed instrument equipment.

(kiss and tell)

[14 May 2005|12:35pm]
.... feeling like i need to appolagize to someone... maybe there's too many people that i really do need to appolagize to. i need to start writting again.

[04 May 2005|11:57pm]

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i love you even if you look like a huge dork in this picture

- love jordan

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[01 May 2005|10:54am]
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the drive home from the party...

andrea:where are you at justin?
justin: im on top of the mountains.....you dont even know
andrea: what dont i know?
justin: that you need to grow hair
andrea: hair for what?
justin: to keep warm


good times!!

<33

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[23 Mar 2005|08:13pm]
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You're the one who's always choking Trojan
You're the one who's always bruised and broken
Sleep may be the enemy
But so's another line
It's a remedy
You should take more time

You're the one who's always choking trojan
You're the one who's showers always golden
Spunk & bestiality well it's an Assisi lie
It's ahead of me
You should close your fly

I understand the fascination
The dream that comes alive at night
But if you don't change your situation
Then you'll die, you'll die, don't die, don't die
Please don't die

You're the one who's always choking trojan
You're the one who's always bruised and broken
Drunk on immorality
Valium and cherry wine
Coke and ecstasy
You're gonna blow your mind

I understand the fascination
I've even been there once or twice or more
But if you don't change your situation
Then you'll die, you'll die, don't die, don't die
Please don't die



( hahaha fucking sluts man i luv you Gwen)

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[14 Mar 2005|08:14pm]
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daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn. i'd hit that.. lol thanks for helping me babe.

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different points of views about ablolutley nothing. [09 Mar 2005|06:35pm]
"distractions... take a deep breath
hold
release
repeat if necessary
you can't be distracted or pounding or light
because those emotions dont belong to you
and once again... youre just overreacting
an overreaction is a feeling that takes place when adrenaline rushes and your body excites
like a rush...
a pull of the trigger-
rushing towards the sidewalk-
you are a pounding heart, an agitated muscle spasm, a grip so tight your knuckles turne white...
you, my darling are a suicide...
unsure and absolutely final all at the same time
abstract... composed and elegeant
like a bottle of pills.
not frantic or compulsive... like a badly tied knot
no.. more complete and absolute... like a razor on a wrist
or a tub full of water
it's alright... dont feel guilty..."



oooh how contemlative i was.... in even getting my edge back haha

(2 | kiss and tell)

[02 Mar 2005|08:44pm]
today's my anniversary.. i luv you baby.

(3 | kiss and tell)

[16 Feb 2005|10:20am]
today in computer lab:

Heath: man... theyd be giving me drug tests!

Andrea: i know im all scared when my mom htinks im sick i like go into hiding

Heath: YEAH!! im happy i dont have insurance....
^ now how sad is that???

aww i love my heather. were getting married and make 9018 dollars a year working at target ::points at herself::

**yvette says: "shut up!"

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[04 Feb 2005|06:31pm]
daaaaaaamn mission danco to-niiiite! haha ok were losers ane were going.... but whatever cause were DANCING!....


jordan babe... i love you to death and im sorry i didnt call but i will and i love you and DONT worry and be careful. love you.::Kisses::

(4 | kiss and tell)

[19 Jan 2005|05:20pm]
these are uncertain feeling
these should never be discussed so
keep them to yourself...

"have you found yourself in a void latley? in a dark uninspired place where nothing seems to go your way so you try and ruin everyone elses life by creeping back into past lovers, friends, companions lives? well if you constantly feel the need to sabotage your fellow co-worker or schoolmates happiness then you should really............. GROW THE FUCK UP ALREADY!!!!! ##@$*@%&@$@#& "things change" so then why didnt you drop them and move on?? huh? yeah... there ya go cracky...something to think about... now go do some lines off some guys erected penis you stupid home wrecker.


* i love my queen *

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[03 Jan 2005|07:07pm]
i love my girls to death and will defend them with everything in me... fuck all you motherfuckers that dont know how to keep in in your pants... i hope you all get STD's and that your penis falls off.

** you know who you are.

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